Monday, February 23, 2009
What a downer.
Man. It really sucks that Charlie, Eric and Wes aren't here. I wonder where they'd be today. Like, it's unfathomable to imagine them being 21-22 but sometimes I can just see them in people around me, if that makes sense.
On 11 May 2005 I wrote "my friend of 7 years died monday. my other friend got in a car wreck today and is busted up pretty badly. the anniversary of the car crash that took two of my best friends is this weekend."
I think that the post that's from was the last real post I made to LJ. I've been under the assumption that you have a different blog for the different stages of your life (at least I do) and Wes' death kind of just ended that stage for me. Going back even further to 17 May 2004, I can't even read the posts, but I'm so glad they're there. Scanning it real quickly, I remember how Trystan punched a hole in the wall, overcome with grief. Simple things like remembering how Charlie's blue jacket hung on the edge of the casket or playing/hearing Ashokan Farewell just kind of stop time and bring me back to a point in life that I've tried to push away. Honestly though, I still think about those guys near-daily and how it's a shame that three young lives with so much potential had to die.
*Ahem* So. Otherwise life is good. Unfortunately my internship requires me to take 3 more classes (2 MIS, 1 MGT) so I'll be graduating in May 2010 instead of Dec 2009. I don't mind too much though because I kinda thought it'd be a gip to not get to have a big Spring graduation. Work itself is pretty good... I've made a good friend in Mr. Nockels, and am hoping J and I can double with Cale and his wife sometime soon. Katie's wedding is quickly arriving... bachelorette party this friday. I'm sure the combined shenanagins will give me an excuse to post. Oh! and I got a wireless mic for guitar hero world tour but I've had a headache all day and haven't tried it out yet. I'm going to make some pancakes and hook it up. woot. By the way...
John Vermeulen, come back to Oklahoma. I will make you peanut butter-oreo milkshakes if you do.
On 11 May 2005 I wrote "my friend of 7 years died monday. my other friend got in a car wreck today and is busted up pretty badly. the anniversary of the car crash that took two of my best friends is this weekend."
I think that the post that's from was the last real post I made to LJ. I've been under the assumption that you have a different blog for the different stages of your life (at least I do) and Wes' death kind of just ended that stage for me. Going back even further to 17 May 2004, I can't even read the posts, but I'm so glad they're there. Scanning it real quickly, I remember how Trystan punched a hole in the wall, overcome with grief. Simple things like remembering how Charlie's blue jacket hung on the edge of the casket or playing/hearing Ashokan Farewell just kind of stop time and bring me back to a point in life that I've tried to push away. Honestly though, I still think about those guys near-daily and how it's a shame that three young lives with so much potential had to die.
*Ahem* So. Otherwise life is good. Unfortunately my internship requires me to take 3 more classes (2 MIS, 1 MGT) so I'll be graduating in May 2010 instead of Dec 2009. I don't mind too much though because I kinda thought it'd be a gip to not get to have a big Spring graduation. Work itself is pretty good... I've made a good friend in Mr. Nockels, and am hoping J and I can double with Cale and his wife sometime soon. Katie's wedding is quickly arriving... bachelorette party this friday. I'm sure the combined shenanagins will give me an excuse to post. Oh! and I got a wireless mic for guitar hero world tour but I've had a headache all day and haven't tried it out yet. I'm going to make some pancakes and hook it up. woot. By the way...
John Vermeulen, come back to Oklahoma. I will make you peanut butter-oreo milkshakes if you do.
Monday, December 29, 2008
end of the year? meh!
So I had started to do my end of the year wrap up a few days ago and had gotten pretty deep into it when I decided it was a bit sillier than I was prepared to do and tossed it.
I've sifted through a few of my friends' wrap ups and the consensus is that this year was terrible. No one said that this was a great year and for those people, I can understand why. Maybe it's because mine was so great that I tossed my initial wrap up. So sorry folks, I had a fantastic year!
Homecoming
woooooooow... THIS. I missed my mommy. and Nelly. and hamburgers/mexican food.
Spring.
In 2008, I was lucky enough to spend it getting to know and falling in love with bb J. With every passing day we grew closer and in May (the 24th I think ;]), after the absolute soul-crushing madness that was IBC, we told each other we lurved each other! Oh... IBC... If I were judging the year by that semester I'd have to write up a post similar to my pouty buddies. But you've gotta look at the positive things experiences teach you and with IBC... my goodness, I learned a lot! The experience alone gave me so much to talk about in interviews as examples of my badassness that it was worth taking... I sur-pose!
Summer.
This summer was pretty nice after IBC and I spent it just taking a few courses and getting my head back together. Life was pretty amazing after Jotito told me he loved me... it really let us open up to each other and not have to tiptoe around our feelings. When my birthday came around Sharon and Bill threw me a party! It was nice to get everyone together and so sweet of them to do that for me. They're so great and I feel lucky to have been welcomed by them. :]
Fall.
As school started up again, I was just relieved to not have to deal with IBC craziness! Instead, we replaced it with Jamie's wedding! It was fun to help her prepare for her big day but there will always be people to try and throw wrenches in plans, in this case it was Jamie's inconsiderate other bridesmaid. And then, as she was trying to figure out how to replace the wretch, her dad and Shelly got in a motorcycle crash just days before the wedding! It was definitely a trying time for Jamie but of course she pushed through and when her big day came she looked gorgeous and her dad was able to walk her down the aisle... stitches 'n' all! I think that helped them overcome some of the pre-wedding tension and realize just how important family love is. I was a bundle of tears the whole evening because I know how much happiness this girl deserves and has found. Oh, and her wedding cake was the best ever. I want strawberry cake with fondant right now!
Holly's wedding was soon after and it was completely different but completely adorable and beautiful! Weddings are awesome and I can't wait for Katie's in a few months!
As the wedding season died down, school took over again and I had to deal with a lot of anger-enducing group projects but it really didn't stress me out as much as things had in the past. I had an amazing logistics class which helped me realize that I'm definitely on the path I want to be and, continuing on that path, I was presented with the perfect opportunity: an internship in Tinker's logistics department! I prepped really hard for it (OU's career services dept rocks! Their mock interviews are amazingly helpful!) and when the time came, I was able to present to them the most accurate me possible. I felt really good about the interview and sure enough was offered a dream internship (for me anyway!!!)! I went to a Christmas party with my future coworkers and they all seemed really nice so I'm lucky to have been given this opportunity. It's a running internship lasting until I graduate, so - especially with the given economic conditions - I'm so blessed to have a pretty stable income flow for a while!
Christmastime.
Winter isn't a season for me this year. It makes me think of gross weather and uncomfy times and with the sun pouring in and with the weather on the 26th being 75 degrees, I'm just going to ignore the snowberries and call it "Christmastime". ahem. so! Christmas was great, woke up and ate beignets, opened presents, hung out with my family and ate our big Christmas lunch. That afternoon I made the trip to Tulsa and listened to Archbishop Alexander Brunett's Christmas Mass on XM on the way over... it was pretty funny going through the prayers and responses in the car! It is a good time to meditate on all the things to be thankful for though, and I took advantage of that time. When I got to Jotito's abode I got to meet his mom! They definitely look alike and it was neat getting to finally meet her :] We opened more presents there and I was really taken aback by how much I got! I was not expecting to have my own stocking and so many gifts... J has a really loving, giving family (as I found out on my birthday) and they really went all out to make me feel welcome!
(Little snaggletooth Pearl!)
(Psst... Willy. You has a head thing.)
Dinner (and breakfast) was amazing as usual and I got a chance to meet J's grandparents the day after Christmas. They were really REALLY sweet and I'm glad to have met them. We basically just hung around together before I had to return home and turn in my Tinker paperwork and work on my honor's research proposal. I begin inprocessing on Monday, so my winter break is basically drawing to a close, though it just began. Such is life, right?
Anyway. Here are some thoughts for what i'd like to do & just things to remember for 2009.
(btw sekaseka means to laugh without reason in Bemba, language of Zambia)
what do you want to remember for the new year?
I've sifted through a few of my friends' wrap ups and the consensus is that this year was terrible. No one said that this was a great year and for those people, I can understand why. Maybe it's because mine was so great that I tossed my initial wrap up. So sorry folks, I had a fantastic year!
Homecoming
woooooooow... THIS. I missed my mommy. and Nelly. and hamburgers/mexican food.
Spring.In 2008, I was lucky enough to spend it getting to know and falling in love with bb J. With every passing day we grew closer and in May (the 24th I think ;]), after the absolute soul-crushing madness that was IBC, we told each other we lurved each other! Oh... IBC... If I were judging the year by that semester I'd have to write up a post similar to my pouty buddies. But you've gotta look at the positive things experiences teach you and with IBC... my goodness, I learned a lot! The experience alone gave me so much to talk about in interviews as examples of my badassness that it was worth taking... I sur-pose!
Summer.This summer was pretty nice after IBC and I spent it just taking a few courses and getting my head back together. Life was pretty amazing after Jotito told me he loved me... it really let us open up to each other and not have to tiptoe around our feelings. When my birthday came around Sharon and Bill threw me a party! It was nice to get everyone together and so sweet of them to do that for me. They're so great and I feel lucky to have been welcomed by them. :]
Fall.As school started up again, I was just relieved to not have to deal with IBC craziness! Instead, we replaced it with Jamie's wedding! It was fun to help her prepare for her big day but there will always be people to try and throw wrenches in plans, in this case it was Jamie's inconsiderate other bridesmaid. And then, as she was trying to figure out how to replace the wretch, her dad and Shelly got in a motorcycle crash just days before the wedding! It was definitely a trying time for Jamie but of course she pushed through and when her big day came she looked gorgeous and her dad was able to walk her down the aisle... stitches 'n' all! I think that helped them overcome some of the pre-wedding tension and realize just how important family love is. I was a bundle of tears the whole evening because I know how much happiness this girl deserves and has found. Oh, and her wedding cake was the best ever. I want strawberry cake with fondant right now!
Holly's wedding was soon after and it was completely different but completely adorable and beautiful! Weddings are awesome and I can't wait for Katie's in a few months!As the wedding season died down, school took over again and I had to deal with a lot of anger-enducing group projects but it really didn't stress me out as much as things had in the past. I had an amazing logistics class which helped me realize that I'm definitely on the path I want to be and, continuing on that path, I was presented with the perfect opportunity: an internship in Tinker's logistics department! I prepped really hard for it (OU's career services dept rocks! Their mock interviews are amazingly helpful!) and when the time came, I was able to present to them the most accurate me possible. I felt really good about the interview and sure enough was offered a dream internship (for me anyway!!!)! I went to a Christmas party with my future coworkers and they all seemed really nice so I'm lucky to have been given this opportunity. It's a running internship lasting until I graduate, so - especially with the given economic conditions - I'm so blessed to have a pretty stable income flow for a while!
Christmastime.
Winter isn't a season for me this year. It makes me think of gross weather and uncomfy times and with the sun pouring in and with the weather on the 26th being 75 degrees, I'm just going to ignore the snowberries and call it "Christmastime". ahem. so! Christmas was great, woke up and ate beignets, opened presents, hung out with my family and ate our big Christmas lunch. That afternoon I made the trip to Tulsa and listened to Archbishop Alexander Brunett's Christmas Mass on XM on the way over... it was pretty funny going through the prayers and responses in the car! It is a good time to meditate on all the things to be thankful for though, and I took advantage of that time. When I got to Jotito's abode I got to meet his mom! They definitely look alike and it was neat getting to finally meet her :] We opened more presents there and I was really taken aback by how much I got! I was not expecting to have my own stocking and so many gifts... J has a really loving, giving family (as I found out on my birthday) and they really went all out to make me feel welcome!
(Little snaggletooth Pearl!)
(Psst... Willy. You has a head thing.)Anyway. Here are some thoughts for what i'd like to do & just things to remember for 2009.
(btw sekaseka means to laugh without reason in Bemba, language of Zambia)what do you want to remember for the new year?
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Horray! Palatial Regalia!
(happy as this guy!)So yesterday was fantastic. Really, really great! I worked on a couple projects in the morning, hanging out with Sir Charles Leroy III and my little Canella. I made some yummy tomato bisque and grilled cheese (haven't had that in years!) and sat down to watch the nasty hoochies on Rock of Love Charm School. So it's about 1:45 and the girls are wasted and screaming/spitting at each other and just being themselves when my phone rings. I look at the number, and there's no name attached to it. o_O could it be? I put on my professional voice and picked it up. Sure enough! It's Lucas from Tinker!!! We chat about the game and how awesome it was to smash Texas Tech and then he says it... "we'd like to give you a formal job offer... you got the position"! So that's awesome... I got the internship! After we finished talking I jumped around screaming, calling J and my parents to no avail. The doggies were going nuts too and when my mom called me back about 10 minutes later she was just as excited! I'm so glad I found out now, I really didn't want to have to wait until around Christmastime, which is when he said they would let me know... so I got to find out a month earlier than I thought I would!
So I went to my meeting, got things sit'chiated and headed back home, where a mysteeeeeeeeerious package was on my doorstep! I hadn't ordered anything in a while, so I wasn't expecting anything... it turned out to be a care package from Chesapeake! They were congratulating me on being chosen as a Chesapeake Scholar and gave me a bunch of swag and a really sweet letter... it was so nice for them to do that on top of giving me a scholarship! So then bb J got off of work and took me to our favourite place, Himalayas, to celebrate. mmm... nothin' like a big ol' plate of Indian food!
We went back to his place and I wrote a paper while he tried to be quiet then talked to my mommy some more about how excited we are then we watched the season finale of True Blood! EEE! It was exciting! It's a shame that Rene was the killer, he reminded me sooo much of Jean! It was a good episode though, next season should be cuh-razy! I ended the night putting together slides, but that's alright... when today's over it'll be thanksgiving break and I'm eat yams and empanadas then head up to Tulsa and visit with J and his family... oh, and write another paper and try and learn Chinese tongue twisters. :/ Such is life!
So! In summary, I'm going to have an amazing federal internship that is absolutely everything that I want and I am ECSTATIC about it! I'm gonna go get a wii now!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
WANT.
THIS.
mmm... I hope I end up making money so I can buy bitchin' shoes and delicious furniture.
Oh, this is how I'd wear these dreamy shoes.
mmm... I hope I end up making money so I can buy bitchin' shoes and delicious furniture.
Oh, this is how I'd wear these dreamy shoes.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Nothing new. Sylvia makes me blog.
mmm... procrastination.Hell hath frozen over, for Sylvia is no longer on facebook. She's definitely earning that north face jacket. :x We went on a date together last night to watch Wong Kar Wai's Fallen Angels. Hot times, but we left early... I had a roast in the oven. nom nom nom!
bb J also came back from squeezin' little boy heads in Tulsa yesterday so I went to go visit him... only I got there about 40 mins early. I sat in my car for a bit but then went over to Artvia's to lose at connect 4 a bunch of times on Art's iphone while Nelly flirted with Tyson.
This past week was pretty busy... had an interview, 2 tests and a paper but it wasn't too bad. Now I'm basically just working on group projects and getting ready for my accounting test.
Goodness, Thanksgiving is approaching! I'm not sure of the exact plans, but anytime there's a break from classes is a lovely occasion indeed. I won't get to see much of my baby as the semester draws to a close so hopefully we'll get to see each other for a bit over the break...
if not I'll just steal his keffiyeh and cry into it while stuffing my face with yams and pumpkin pie!
Anyways! I just watched Clerks which is always a good time and am watching The Baxter now. I don't know too much about it (nor do I know how good I can expect it to be) but Michael Showalter stars in it (lovelovelove!) and Michael Ian Black & David Wain's have small roles so seeing my Stella babies is enough for me.
back to polyvore-ing.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Oh dear!
I don't think I'll ever get good at this blogging business!
Sylvia tried to keep me on track, but I'm such a disappointment.
This latest round of tests went a lot better than I expected it to... for the first time ever I got an A on an accounting exam! I'll take that, thanks. The other classes are going well too, have gotten either A's or high B's, but they're neverending so who know's how it'll end up.
Speaking of things going well, J and I celebrated our one year anniversary last weekend. It was kind of an arbitrary date, but it didn't matter. We went and ate some sushi then watched OU's production of Chicago which was great! Their "Both Reached for the Gun" was amazing! I just wished their Billy Flynn held the last note longer like in the '96 (aka the best) cast.
It's so nice to be with someone you love so much and just feel completely comfortable with them all the time. It's so silly... I think about him at random times during the day and just get all full of lovey dovey feelings. This is the best relationship I've ever had... we lived together in China and now we see each other pretty much everyday... a big turn around from what I'm used to. Plus, my mama refers to him as one of her kids, and all of my friends think he's awesome, so this is definitely a love worth celebrating, in my book. Happy Anniversary to us! :]
Halloween was much more tame compared to last year in 昆明... we just watched a bit of Donnie Darko and Techno Viking at Meg & Miles' then went home where I fell asleep during some movie. Then last night J and I went to see Eagle Eye which was pretty entertaining. Not very plausible, but it was nice 'n' actiony. There's been so much wedding news abound and I think it's great. I'm glad that my friends are finding love... once I get some pictures from her, I'll post some of Jamie's wedding! I petsit her lovely Piper while she went on her honeymoon to the Dominican Republic. What a dream of a dog. She lurves to curl up with you at night and keep you warm... unlike grumbly Nelly-pants!
Purity Balls are really strange. No holding hands or kissing until marriage?? I'm watching the special over it on TLC and it is just so sad that some of these girls can't even have normal conversations with their mothers. AND! How hypocritical... some guy has 9 kids from 7 different women and feels like he's responsible enough to decide who his children should be with? The dads that they show on there are all pretty creepy, actually. Taking a vow to make sure their daughters stay virgins? Uhhhhhhhhh... I mean, I'm planning to wait until marriage but it's my own decision. These parents don't educate their kids and so if they break their vows, they have no idea about birth control. It's a shame. Can't wait for "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" to come on! hahaha
